Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-99.50.241.111-20130422210148/@comment-11099855-20130629154618

At my school, practically no one likes me. They truly, honestly have no valid reason. I get called names, kicked, punched, demeaned by teachers and this has caused me to hate myself. You know what, sometimes I get where they're coming from. But most of the time I know that it's just them, doing as they've always done, as they've been taught to do by observation and they've followed the crowd. When I move up schools, the populars, nerds and every other stupid stereotype seem to tow the hatred towards me with them. I always try to do my best. I always try to ignore it but when things bog you down and you can't deal with it, you develop problems that weren't there in the first place. I was normal...ish. I was tested for a menagerie of different mental disabilities when I was just 3. I know it's hard to believe but it's true. And what's even harder to believe is that they still haven't made their minds up yet. I've missed a butt-load of school because of this and this just brings the harassment to a whole new level. I have self-diagnosed before. Quite accurately, if I do say so myself. My diagnoses' are:

Dyspraxia

bipolar

OCD

And some form of autistic... thing...

I don't, in any way, shape or form, believe this is me and that this excuses anything I say or do because sometimes I know that it's wrong and sometimes, as some people on this site well know, I do what I do out of concern.

When I was 4, a kid grabbed me by the back of my head and scraped my face across a brick wall. I lost my best friend when I was 6 because some backwards (yet highly effective) bullies pushed her over and blamed it on me. People have called me thick ever since I was small and they still do. I've been used my whole life because I'm messed up and my dad and sister both blame me because they have problems. My friends are assholes and everything that comes out of their mouths' keeps knocking me back into a dark hole. I don't actually know why I'm telling a bunch of strangers this but, seeing as it took over an hour to type, I'm going to post it anyway (providing my internet lets me).

P.s. the bullying didn't stop. I am still being singled out and yes no one has actually figured out what the hell is actually wrong with me. Feel free to hate because I am officially beyond caring.