Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-99.50.241.111-20130422210148/@comment-5525546-20130427171214

My first grade teacher didn't like me so My mom ad to get papers from vanderbilt for me to even be tested. However my scoial disorder prevented me from skipping becuase I wasn't mature enough or something. I was bullied even in kindergarten. I had an extra year because of my late december birthday. SO when Some students were learning the alphabet I could read and multiply. I Stayed in a corner most of my First few years becuase my classmates despised me. I wasn't not oppressive or controlling like some of the other advanced students. I never tried to insult anyone, but I still was sectioned off. When I was elementary school I got Jumped on my street too. '''ELEMENTARY GETTING JUMPED. '''Not even kidding. I had entire grade levels against me, not just a class. And For the most part it is still that way, Except I've grown a tad bitter, Am now taller then most of them, And faster and stronger. Most of what I get is people talking behind my back instead of my face these days. I don't exactly command superiority, but I guess it's just where I am now. Every day I'm fighting battles with my inside. I've grown so Irratable lately My Anxiety makes me snap at little things. I get deppressed all the time at home, and it's never fun. I mean It's deppression. You think about things you don't want to think about. I don't know how to explain it, but It's like I'm self aware. I have me, which Is how I talk and move, and what I do. And my inner mind. And sometimes it's like my inner mind is introverted looking from the outside in. I can be deppressed and Not be able to do anything about, and I'll have me thinking like that, but another perfectly sane me thinking of something different like I  can change anything. And sometimes when I let it, weird things happen with my mood. I can listen to it, and if It says I can calm down, that I don't really care, I can just stop and change what I am. It's not multi-personailty before any of you think that. becuase I control both mindsets they are just different. One being me on the outside and the other my inside. DO any of you know what I mean by that?